Stupid is as stupid does

I learned the hard way how to not sweat the small stuff and put life into perspective; I lost my mom too early. I remember thinking when mom died that I would never again allow myself to get all worked up for nothing. I would never allow myself to put meaning in the meaningless, place importance on the non-important and worry about things I cannot control. Well I blew that out of the fucking water this week.

Sunday night I'm enjoying a lovely evening at home. I'm looking at my Twitter and @IamDiddy tells me to turn on BET...so I do, and start watching the BET awards. Next thing I know I go to do some work and voila...no internet. I check my home phone line also provided by Comcast....no phone either. I imagine this is something that can be handled easily so I give Comcast a call and 2 days, 7 conversations, and tears later I still have no fucking internet. OK...well, I do now because I just got it back but you get the point.

It's one thing to go without TV, Phones, and Internet when you're on a camping trip but when I'm at home (and I work from home mind you) I want these things to work, and work well, and work quickly. I have literally been a raging bitch for the last 2 days. I had multiple anxiety attacks and had to have a glass of wine at 4:30 yesterday so I could continue to breathe. (Veronica, if you're reading this I swear I only had one and I went back to work).

The bottom line is that I'm an idiot. Why in the world would something without importance, meaning and definitely something that I can do nothing about get me so worked up? Why did I let it get to me? I have my priorities figured out, right?

So now the internet is back on and I can tweet, blog and email in peace....but mostly I can put myself in a serious TIMEOUT. Worry about what you can control....the rest is trivial.

That's my REV RUN blog for the month.